"Yeah. For a long time, I was really convinced that I was just a woman in a man's body. I didn't hate my body or anything, but I was always falling in love with men, and men who... wanted women. So that's why my original body became inconvenient," she shared with a small smile. Now that she was looking at it all in retrospect, it was pretty simplistic reasoning. But Nuriko also didn't feel entirely separated from it.
It made her wonder how much weight she put into the fact that Rin was also someone who probably preferred being with a female body.
"But after a while, I realized, when I'm not thinking about other people... they're both there. Nuriko the man, Nuriko the woman. And I stopped becoming so desperate about wanting to change myself. It became easier to accept other people, too. This might sound terrible, but it became easier not to have a choice once I realized who I was. Now, I'm wondering how I can do this and still say that I loved myself as I was then. It's all getting tangled up in here." Nuriko tapped a finger against her temple.
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Date: 2014-04-28 12:06 am (UTC)It made her wonder how much weight she put into the fact that Rin was also someone who probably preferred being with a female body.
"But after a while, I realized, when I'm not thinking about other people... they're both there. Nuriko the man, Nuriko the woman. And I stopped becoming so desperate about wanting to change myself. It became easier to accept other people, too. This might sound terrible, but it became easier not to have a choice once I realized who I was. Now, I'm wondering how I can do this and still say that I loved myself as I was then. It's all getting tangled up in here." Nuriko tapped a finger against her temple.